Absolute

 Absolute - total, unconditional, and free from restriction or limitation, often signifying something complete, perfect, or certain

Hello - Below you will find a random blog of mine. I am lost and thought and wanted to express how I feel. The thing is if you would ask me how I deal with stress or unwind or even relax I would tell you the typical workout, hangout with friends, go on a walk or drink a beer. I wouldn't ever say writing a blog. But thats what life is - it's the unplanned, the simple and the calling you have that makes you burn inside, that makes you feel alive. Now, I am not saying I am retiring from work to become a full time blogger, or maybe I will - we'll find out.

I am sitting here as a 23 year old roughly 276 days after graduation wondering, am I doing enough? Am I where I am supposed to be? What's my plan? What's my purpose? Now many of you reading this (if anyone is actually reading is) is probably saying that seems like a lot of pressure to put on yourself as a 23 year old. I'd say that I agree - but thats just how I am, for better and for worse.  I have seen how absolute life is. 368 days ago my father took his last breath, 1 month from yesterday will be 4 years since I have seen my grandpa. Both not ready to go yet God had other plans. Now, I am not questioning God and his infinite wisdom. But it makes me sit here and think, anyday and anytime it could be my turn. Now that has me sitting here asking those questions again. Because when it is my time theres going to be 2 questions asked - 1. Did I live the life God had designed for me? 2. Was I a good and faithful servent? And as I sit here typing this my answer is - I can do better. 

So I ask myself - how do I measure success? How do I measure Progess? How do I measure the person that I am? 

Well that is easy - a wise man once told me "if you look back from 3 months from now and you have improved even just a little that is progress" 

So I write this to tell myself - life isn't linear, it isn't perfect, but it is absolute.